SerabutCappla

Today is 19 Ramadan for 2025. This year will be Pahang which is my mom hometown for us to celebrate Eid. These year that state were no longer be my fave place to go to. Either for vacation or visit. You may call me arrogant or anything. It wont affect me anymore. I'm seeking for anything that can be done. I realised that after few years not working and being homebody, I'm more busy than the years I'm working. I've got no time for myself and even if I got the time, it will be replaced either with me sleeping or scrolling the phone. I've got so many project that supposed to be done or finished but it being abondoned happily by me. Now, I'm being proposed by new project which is business but I'm scared to start. It's not just the proposal done today and you may proceed tomorrow! It's not like that for me. Maybe for other people does but not me. I wish that I can be or provide a big helpfor my family.

Another day another story to begin with. What did I do today? Well, its the common thing that almost everybody done in their life perhaps. The difference is I'm not working. I'm everybody helper at this house. I'm not saying that I'm being ungrateful to what I have nowdays. I'm just got nothing to felt anymore. The feeling of scared, sad or happy its very seldom come to me. Is it weird? I dont know. Maybe I'm going emotionless? I tend to ignore my needs on emotions and feelings nowadays. When I'm thinking and not doing anything, there is a lot of monologue running thru my head. Until I'll be overwhelmed with all the words that flying thru my head. And when I decided to write or type anything everything will be gone like a dust and very hard to capture! My head blank again and my eyes were sleepy and trust me after I ended this essay my eyeswill be fresh like being washed using washing machine... Adios!